My Opinions On Suicide In The Western World.

I know I’m gonna get backlash for this but its true and I dont give a fuck. I feel most people who claim to be arent and are what I rant about below.

Suicide is not something to be fucked with I get that. I dont joke about that shit anymore. But honestly everyone single person who is a giant selfish attention whore. Honestly you think your life is bad I ca bet there’s people way worse out there who are fine. Honestly when was the last time we saw someone popular who is never made fun of or judged and gets a lot of attention from both sexes commit suicide? answer me that?

We all think our life is so terrible and as a kid I had suicidal thoughts as a kid, but I self taught myself to do things I was happy with and hangout with the people I was happy with instead of trying to be something I wasn’t. I also took (and still o to this day when I get down) the negatives in my life and use that energy to focus and commit to something that I will not only enjoy but will reward me with positive attention.

We have 5 basic needs (from least important to most). Self-Actualization, Esteem, love/belonging, safety, and physiological (food, sex, sleep water). People who are suicidal usually arent getting any of those needs met (or feel so), but really 90% of those can be obtained with some help from the right people. instead of being an attention seeking idiot ask for help. Hell is you accept who you are you can easily obtain those yourself.. I did it so why cant you? 

 

I understand everyone copes differently so dont say anyone person is more or less suicidal because of how they choose to cope and seek for that attention and acceptance they need.

Seek help.. these thoughts shouldnt be taken lightly at all. You may thing you are worthless but you arent so quit begging for attention and just open your eyes and appreciate what you have.

My Opinion On The Friend Zone and Why It’s Nobody Elses Fault But Your Own.

I was one of you lads at one point. I pined after girls and when it didnt work out I blamed them for it, I called them names and developed misogynistic ideas and attitudes towards them. I always thought I was the good guy surrounded in a world full of bitches that only go for guys that are assholes. I was wrong. So terribly wrong. Here are my opinions that I’ve gathered since I got my first boner from looking at a female, be they from first hand experiences or passed down from people who have been in the same shoes as I. These are simply my own personal opinions and yours may very well vary. Different strokes for different folks.

Friendzone.

This one thing that I am all to fimilar with. This is how it goes down. Girl likes girl, guy doesnt tell girl or shows that hes interested for some reason. The guy thinks that being the “Nice Guy” will get him the girl. Sadly the girl just isnt interested in the guy, or she is but since the guy is coming off in a way where it seems he isnt making a move she loses interest and moves on. As a result since she might really enjoy being with the guy she keeps him around because really they do have a great friendship. Relationships come and go, but a good friendship may not. That was the usual and most common way. Here are a couple more examples of how this can go down.

1) This is where the girl keeps the guy around because she likes the attention and the ego boost. Fuck her. That is not a friend. kick her to the curb and get friends that dont use you for some ego boost because you think it’ll get your dick wet.

2) This on is probably the most honest of the 3. Its where you tell them you like them and they’re simply not attracted to you. They enjoy being with you as a friend but not in a romantic type of way. This is where you actually are friends. No ego boosting or beating around the bush with feelings.

Personally I think the friend zone is a load of crap it’s a stupid term guys use because they’re to nice and insecure, and really have no way to talk to women. Be straight up. Let him/her know how you feel. Sure good may come to those who wait, but even better things come to those who work and fight for it.

You should all checkout this video. This guy has some pretty spot on ideas of this all. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D0IFsfsyBGU

Nice Guy VS “Nice Guy”
I’m sure if you’ve made it this far you’ve probably asked your self why I have put quotations around the words Nice Guy. It’s a simple answer really. When a guy gets “friendzoned” he usually compalins because girls often say they want a nice guy instead of the confidence ridden asshats she usually dates. He says that he’s a nice guy but he doesnt realize hes not a nice guy. He in in fact a “Nice Guy.” So what is the difference between the two? Well a nice guy is just a guy that is nice. Simple as that. You dont have to be an asshole or a douche bag to get girls. Just have confidence. Simple as that.

Now here’s what a “Nice Guy” is.

• Usually bends over for a girls every command
• He’s ALWAYS there for here. at every moment of the day
• He’s insecure and doesnt know how to talk to women
• He is way to nice to the point where its overboard or creepy. Let the girl breathe man.
• They are anxious to be liked and loved that they do things for other people to gain acceptance and attention, rather than for the simply pleasure of giving.
• Clingy
• let people walk all over them and are afraid of altercations or bringing up their true feelings.
• instead of making the decisions they let her make all the choices. Let her work around your plans. If you have something going on let her no. Dont drop plans opr bend over backwards because she can’t do something.
• They pick girls with emotional problems and love to play doctor Phil
• they’ll never meet anyone as good as the girl they are currently talking to.
• They are way to loving and act as almost they need the girl.

So there you have it. A nice guy or simply put a real man, and a “Nice Guy” are two different things. Don’t bend over backwards for her, just be yourself. Not some ego inflated fuck stick.

The Bottom Line.

This answer is also simple. Confidence! Why does that douche bag or the asshole get the girl? because he has confidence he can talk to girls. he doesnt pull any of that “Nice Guy” shit. You dont have to talk to every girl you see. Yeah it can be hard for us awkward guys, but its easy really. Just start with a joke or something. for example there was this new girl at work. I thought she was pretty cute. So what do i do? I walk up to here and made a joke about how fun she looked like she was having. She laughed about it and we talked for a good 15 to 20 minutes till my boss told me to get back to work. Sure you could say hey or hello, but you should always follow it with something. If you do they’ll have a reason to respond to you with something that is exactly what you said to them. Conversations can get awkward fast if there’s nothing to talk about. If you have nothing to talk about just bring up something about your life, or the world around you. Hell bring up how good or shitty the weather has been the last few days if you have to. Those tend to spark up a conversation pretty fast from my experience.

Confidence is the key. Its not a hard concept at all. It may be scary at first, but once you get used to it it isn’t really hard at all.

These are all my own opinions. You’re may be different. Nowhere do I say I am correct in any of this. Just my advice and what I have picked up.

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Reflecting On Twenty Twelve

2012. Well, it has been quite the ride. i learned so much about myself this year met a lot of new people, got into, tried new things and took some risks. Now that the year draws to a close I take this time to write up a reflection on my life in the area’s I think are important to me at the moment. I’ll categorize this into sections in which i fell I should reflect on.

MUSIC

As some of you may know music has always been a huge part of my life for as long as I can remember. For the past year I have listened to a lot of dubstep and I have blown a lot of money on music. I have discovered so many artists great artists within the scene, and artists I love currently make bangers (Borgore). Music over the years has had a lot of impact of my personality or my personality has had an impact of my music taste as I get older. Right now i’m pretty big on Borgore because his music is crazy and he gives no fucks. That’s reflected my personality cause I have been posting a lot more shit, and giving less fucks.

I also recently opened my doors on rap, and I’ve been listening to a lot more. That’s probably cause of the girl i’m wheeling ATM. I tend to develop a new taste in something music related for each girl I “wheel”

DJING

I had big plans for 2012 i terms of my Djing, and I am quite disappointed in how I’ve kinda tossed it to the side. I wanted 2012 to be the year I got my first gig (even if it was a shitty house party with like a handful of kids). I bought an Native Instruments S2 after my Gemini CTRL One fried, and got Pioneer HDJ500’s after my Beats started to go. I spendt about 4 grand on equipment and music and I plan on buying some KRK Studio Monitors so I can get back into DJing again. Honestly out of everything I have done in life this is what i’ve been the happiest with. I have gained so much more self respect and confidence for myself because of it.

I promise 2013 I will not be fucking around. I’m gonna get myself out there, get gigs (even if they are shitty house parties), and get the fuck out of my bedroom.

Women/Relationships/Friends

I’ve kinda grouped these all together because they wouldn’t be long enough on their own to make it its own section.

In 2012 I met a lot of cool people and really got a grip on my friends. I may not always enjoy them and wish I was apart of a different group, but they are the kids I fit in with the most and the ones i get along with the most. So I just said fuck it, and instead of constantly trying to fit in everywhere I just stuck with them. Also as a result I’ve been able to branch out to other people outside of the group i hangout with at school when it comes to hanging out outside of school.

Women. Well I still blow with that. I honestly had made it my goal for 2012 to quit fucking around and get with some girls. Weather that be a relationship, fling, sex, or just being able to say I know for sure someone feels the same for me as I feel for them. Oddly since I started my junior year in high school I’ve given less fucks and I’m known for my internet rep with all the crazy, stupid, fucked up, sexist shit I come out with. Oddly it’s worked for me. It hasn’t necessarily gotten my dick sucked, but hell women who I’ve always thought thought of me as you think of a fart in a wind storm were  chatting me up in class and online, they liked and favorited my shit on social networking sites, and I made them laugh. This all really goes back to the attitude I developed from my hard on for Borgore and the people I’ve met online who’ve influenced this  “DILLIGAF” attitude.

This may sound sappy as fuck but I’ll quote what I said to this redhead with nice tots when we were just chatting about how our love lives aren’t going the way we’d like. This is honestly how I feel about relationships.

“I just want to be able to love someone in a non family or friend type of way, and i want to have someone feel the same about me. I want to waste money on them and spoil them.. Just someone I can call mine. Someone who likes me for me and cares for me just as much as I may care for them.”

APPEARANCE 

I’ve never really had a problem with the way i’ve dressed, but like everyone else I have thing I like to fix. In 2012 I really started taking better care of myself. In the summer I developed some muscle and a stupid ass farmers tan (which I still have). I started doing shit with my hair and I plan of getting a haircut this weekend so i can style it again. I also started taking some consideration into what I am wearing, and I plan of completely overhauling my style and to wear better fitting clothing and clothing that reflects how I feel as a person and clothing that makes me feel happy about myself. I know everyone always says this around this time of year and almost no one does ever stick to it, but i honestly want to get into shape. I’m not fat what so ever, but I have some baby fat, and I think my ability to eat and eat and never gain weight is slowly catching up with me. So I hope to better myself in those areas come 2013.

FAMILY  

This has probably got to me the craziest out of all things in my life. Mom’s boyfriend was introduced around the start of 2012. honestly he’s taught me a lot. I love my dad. I really do, but I never really felt like my father was my father he felt more like an older brother to me, but that might be because my mom mothered him more then she mothered us. But yeah, since her boyfriends been around I actually have an older male role model to relate to. Since he’s been around I’ve been a more open individual all around life and I’ve been a lot more confident with myself. I can act like a goof and he just joins me while my father would just get annoyed and pissy.

CONCLUSION

So there you guys go. My year in a nut shell. I have shit to work on and improve, but I feel that finally once in my life that I am pretty much happy with every aspect of my life….Expect my love life.. I need to get a girl haha 🙂 any takers? I’m single, and ready to mingle? I wrote this listening to Borgore, chatting with bitties, and eating chocolate. So i wonder if any of those effected my mindset at all during this?

What the hell is up with teenagers in this day and age?

Seems kids can’t take responsibility for their actions and when they get the heat for it they flip out. It’s pretty sad. Hell, I almost seized up a 10grand engine over the summer. I was a hair away from loosing my job probably, but I accepted responsibility for MY fuck up after getting yelled at pretty bad and cleaned up the mess it made. Still had my job, and even got a personal thanks from the boss after my 2 month (summer job) period with the company.

Kids can’t take jokes either. Seems you make a joke and people want to kick your ass and call you names. I learned this the hard way and got attacked in a McDonalds parking lot FFS.

I’m sure not all kids are like this, but fuck. I’m sure I get like this at times, but holy hell. Seems like everyone has a stick up their ass.

Sigh :/

ya i admit i’m not good with the ladies as i’d like to be, but to tell me you’re better than me (on twitter) cause some girl we both work with likes you and has cheated on her current BF when she makes out with you is retarded. To call me out like that is also kinda cuntish. I don’t like to play fastball with people I’d call pretty good pals but all it’d take would be to do a little facebook stalking and some messaging and you’d be screwed. IDK maybe you’re happy because and I quote “you can atleast get girls,” but if I were you I’d tell her it’s either me or him.

Also she cheated on him with YOU? Who’s to say that if things do work out for you she won’t do the exact same to you when a better guy comes along?

I noticed this today

I don’t know, maybe it’s something in the water. Seems the last few girls that have caught my eyes have been blonde blue eyes. One step to becoming Hitler I guess.

I’ve always went for brunettes for some reason. I don’t know as I get older I noticed changes in my personality and behaviour, Maybe this is just one of them.

More fun for me I guess.

Welcome.

I had an idea to do a blog. So here it is.

Making websites is something I have always enjoyed, but sadly my interests have changed over the last two years to more music based activities. (DJing and that kind of stuff). I thought this blog would be a good idea cause I’m always thinking and ranting about shit in my head, usually silly little shit to. So I was like hey Why the fuck do I need a diary when I can just post on a blog? INB4 Tumblr.

 

You’ll see everything from shit going on in my life to random rants, some offensive shit and probably me posting music that I like and want to share. As well as DJ related stuff also.

Enjoy.